No pic today

I'll make up for it tomorrow.

My soul is low today. I think it's a combination of being weirdly tired, being heinously behind already/again, not feeling I'm fulfilling my complete responsibility to my students and this effing neverending job, that our department meeting today basically ended on the note that we have too many failing students and we need to revamp our curriculum again (we do this every year), the fact that one of my students is seeking help and emancipation but her situation probably isn't dire enough for the state to consider it...maybe not until her gangbanger family kills her or something, and the fact that another of my students (an aforementioned cutter) is having more self-inflicted violence and substance abuse issues (she came to school loaded once last week and also today).

I've spent the evening having a meltdown.

How are we supposed to handle this job again? I can't fucking do this. It is not in my power to give these kids the kind of help they really need.