In grading hell...

...yet again. I'm just over halfway through my late-collected research papers. Fortunately, it's just one class, but I'll admit to be being sick of marking up Works Cited pages ad nauseam. We were so pressed for time at the senior level this past semester that none of us had enough time to teach this as well as we needed to. We hope to correct that in second semester. I get a new batch of seniors tomorrow for my second go-round of the new sci-fi class. The first semester turned out fairly decently, better than I had any right to expect. It took a while to teach them how to engage in the level of thinking I wanted from them -- you mean SF has a purpose? I just thought it was for cool special effects -- but they got there, or at least started to. We ended up with some good discussions in the last month of the semester. And Ender's Game blew them away, which made me very happy. Regardless of how you may feel about Orson Scott Card, no can argue that the novel isn't powerful and gripping. Some of my students said it was the best book they had ever read in school. Gratifying. However, I hate it when one class sucks the majority of my energies and time. Now perhaps I can go back to being a good teacher in my other classes, too. Perhaps? Please, God? My poor AP Lang students.

I can hardly believe that Lent is fast approaching and Easter is only seventy days away. It's OK, though. I feel ready for Lent. I need it. I almost want it. I need to clean up, cut back, refocus, retrain, re-prioritize. I look forward to our silent Lenten retreat. The focus last year was prayer, and it was earth-shaking, even for one who has been raised with church/God/prayer as daily, sometimes ho-hum realities. This year's focus is listening. I expect it to be just as powerful an experience.

Since school has drawn all of my energies, I have not made much progress on my thesis. I met and had dinner and conversation with two classmates last night, and it was the shot in the arm I had hoped it would be. The fondue was gorgeous, the wine plentiful, and the conversation soothed my soul and energized my brain. I love that. These ladies are amazing humans and teachers. I will have a couple of days "off" this month, and I think I may actually be motivated to use them to work on the thesis instead of burning them away by sleeping in extravagantly or devouring a novel.

The Benedictine group continues to be both a support and a challenge. They make me a better person, and a better Christian. I am reading a novelization of the life of St. Benedict, and his faith is so galvanizing. My own practice is so weak and pathetic in light of his, but rather than depress me, it inspires me. How much could we see accomplished if we actually believed everything God said about faith and about what God is willing to do for us and through us? Yet why does complete submission to God's will terrify me so? Probably because I'm a control freak. Heh.

Got to take pix of a dear friend's new son. His big brother (who isn't yet 3) is not so sure what he thinks about his new baby brother. He misses his daddy's lap and his mommy's undivided attention, to be sure. He'll adjust, I'm certain. But it was pretty funny, in a wry sense, to observe his expressions and body language as we took photos. Their adorable brotherly pix feature older bro looking off in the opposite direction, making faces, refusing to sit on the lap of the other parent (the floor was preferable). Yep, he's going to have some adjustments to make.

Finally saw Avatar. Did not really look forward to it. Knew I had to see because...well, just because I had to. Left the theater with a very different opinion. Yes, the dialogue clunked along in places; yes, sometimes it was Titanic in Outer Space; yes, the fact that the stupid 3D projector broke down 2/3 of the way through the film was frustrating and rant-inducing; but I love the movie. The vision of the luminescent forest was alone worth the price of admission. I look forward to seeing it again (for free, using the free tickets we got as a result of the projector break-down -- score!).

OK, so who could tell that I'm avoidance-behaving for all I'm worth right now? And it's true, though I can certainly rationalize my behavior by noting that I'm behind in my blogging (very much so -- so much for Project 52), and I have a lot to catch up on. Heh. All right -- back to more research papers on GPS, UAVs, and other military research projects. Fun stuff! To my faithful readers, I hope this finds all three of you healthy, content, and well. :-)